To my little boy: I can still remember how you looked so many years ago. Those smiling eyes, bright attitude, those inquisitive lips that spoke volumes of who you can become. The curiosity you possessed would brighten my day and I knew my boy was going to go far in life. I had a vision of you becoming a passionate, caring human being with all the wisdom the world can give. I am so proud of you.
But all I have are the memories of your early years. I often think to myself and imagine what you would be like today. My young man, graduating from college, becoming a family man with a beautiful wife and children. I can see them sitting on my knee bouncing them until they laugh so hard they fall off. I can see all the compassion in a young man today.
But when I go home I see it’s nothing but a dream in an old mans mind. Soon my time will come and I will be able to see my little boy and we can remember the years we spent together.
To my wonderful Dad: I am sorry that I had to leave you without saying goodbye. Please don’t blame yourself for not being there, because my Heavenly Father was there for me. That rainy night when I saw the headlights, I froze when the car couldn’t stop. When it hit me, I didn’t feel any pain, sorrow, or agony. and before I hit the ground there was a pair of hands that grabbed me like a little baby boy and held me like you did when I was a baby. I could see my twisted body laying on the floor but it felt like a dream. As I looked up I heard a voice that said: “Welcome home my child, you will want for no more. I bring you home to the promise land and you will always be loved.”
As I was lifted to the skies I saw the pearly gates open up. As I looked down below I saw you dad. You were working that day to provide for our family, so you are not to blame. When I went through the gates of heaven I was able to look over you and hopefully be able to guide you through all you sorrow and your recovery.
To my little boy: That day God took you away, I wondered about what you were doing. I prayed for you with all my soul and I felt a little of your soul inside mine. It was that soul that kept me going for all those years. Your brother turned out to be a great man, and your sister is the top of the bunch. It took some time for your mother to go on with her life, but just to let you know, there isn’t a day goes by without her thinking about you. And me, well I can feel your presence looking down on me everyday which gives my life new meaning. When you went through those pearly gates, and after all these years, did you remain my little boy, or did you continue to grow into a man that I dreamed about? Either way would be fine with me, because I still hold all those memories.
To my wonderful dad: I am that and everything else. I am that little boy you remember so long ago, I am the brother who teased my little sister and told stories to my brother. I am also my mom’s little boy as she rocks me to sleep when I was scared. And yes, I am that little boy who grew up into a man. You were right when you dreamed what I would become. I see my beautiful wife and wonderful children. I see the gray around your temples and I see how you and mom still love each other. And I also see how the world is today, and I am saddened that you had to see it. I don’t think I would have survived in this world. That is why I try to guide you through all this turmoil. I love you dad, but I don’t want you to visit me any earlier that you are supposed to. But just keep thinking of me, and I will lead the way home.
My little boy, thanks for sharing your life with me. Goodbye until the next time, Your wonderful dad.
My wonderful dad, thank you for not shutting me out. Goodbye until the next time, Your little boy.
